Friday, October 25, 2013

then she fell off the face of the earth and came back and assaulted me with a mediocre post and a million photos. oh yeah, and a pathetic run-on sentence masquerading as the title.

soooo. hi.

i don't know what really happened there. it was not an intentional month long break, but i tell ya: in the race between mothering and wife-ing and showering (weekly maybe?) and schooling and thinking and working and worshiping and family-ing and reassessing and reorganizing and reprioritizing...

blog posts lose.

as they often should.

but my brain is jammed to the brim and the family record here is dwindling so i decided to pull up my big girl pants and unwind. i like this little space.

so, what has been going on? outwardly, so many things. i can't even go there really, it would be such a laundry list. the kind of things that keep your days packed and your stress levels high and life feeling relatively full. but it's been good.

of particular note has been the birth of my two newest nephews!!!!!!:

Oliver Lyle Hansen

Wyatt Daniel Hansen
Photo: Mom and Wyatt together again.

don't even get me started on these two. unBELIEVABLE. so cute. little miracles. poor Wyatt had a bit of stress from the birth process, but is doing very well now, thankfully. so glad. he gave his mom and dad a brief scare at the beginning. in fact, now that he is just fine, i've decided i already like that about him. he's got spunk, that squirt. he is smaller than oliver but what he lacks in weight he's made up in sheer grit. hey wyatt and oliver, you've captured this girl's heart already. and i'm a hard sell, believe you me. i don't just let any cute babies go around shamelessly stealing my affections. you've got to be careful with those round eyes and cubby cheeks. they are dangerous. but gosh, when i think of you boys? siggggggggh.

k, what else? i guess inwardly, i've been a bit angsty and annoyed and attempting to figure out myself a bit more. 29 years just isn't enough time, not even close, to know who exactly i'm dealing with here. you know?! sheesh life, you can be such a processssss sometimes.

 i've been particularly enjoying being a mother lately. i don't think that is always the case with mothering. there are seasons to life in general, in a very macro life stage sort of way. so, in macro terms, i can happily report that I am content and joyous and purpose filled. but there are also micro seasons, seasons within seasons. there have been some seasons that have been more challenging than others. there are some seasons when mothering feels like a never ending, uphill climb. but then there are good seasons. seasons when it feels like the perfect autumn day.

{{sawyer comes to visit!}}

the season i've entered, although probably brief, is feeling comfy. i find myself at night saying prayers mostly of gratitude for this time. it feels like i'm still in the planting and cultivating season, but also the harvest? does that make sense? it is so good. it's like i'm still hard at work but have been given a small lunch break. emerson is no longer breastfeeding. all four of my girls sleep through the night. they are little and perfect and funny and naughty and sometimes downright annoying and overall... simply splendid. and i am glad to be right here

{{trick or treat in Disneyland. i know. i know i know!!!}}

{{Look who came to join us!!!!}}


{{autumn house touches}}

{{halloween sugar cookie bake with our neighborhood friends}}


so, that's it for now!

you still here?!


Lori Haack said...

Ahhhhh......FINALLY! We miss all of you!
Love & kisses--

Anonymous said...

You are such a great writer.

Joan said... I still here?! You bet I am! :)
It IS good to hear from you, dear one. I love the pics and reading your thoughts.
Oh, and I cannot believe how grown up Miss Emerson is!?
Happy Halloween week!

Anonymous said...

Miss you Rae--I promise to call you back soon. :) Janet